The Kafka Experiment: My Own Private Metamorphosis

2009-02-24T14:09:00.000-08:00

Abandoning this blog becuase I have another. Consolidation is good for you.

www.dailyweeklyjoint.blogspot.com

In Other News

2009-02-03T14:36:00.001-08:00

Oh, and for those of you wondering, that 90 day challenge thing in the last post was just made up here and now. But yeah, I'm going to really watch my diet and exercise at least 4 days a week for the next 90 days. Suprise! Suprise to me! But I'm curious. I have piqued my own interest. I'll stick with it and see where it takes me.

As for the promised "other news," I've discovered Hulu.com. I can watch all kinds of TV for free. Typically, I could care less. I love TV, but there's only a few shows I'm really really interested in. And Hulu frequently pisses me off by not including all the episodes of a show/season, which really defeats the purpose that I was going to use it for: catching up on all the series I've been missing these last few years because I can't maintain an effing schedule. But, I have been able to watch Fringe (which I was interested in but gave up on and am rediscovering; still undecided) and Lie to Me which I can't watch on it's regularly scheduled night because, HELLO, it comes on at the same time as LOST. And I love LOST so much that I actually told my roommate and best friend to take her cell phone conversation into her bedroom or "shut it" during an the episode last week. Whoops. (I would do it again.)

So yeah. Hulu is nice. It's not perfect, but I'm taking advantage of it as best I can.

P.S. Watching Fringe at work = great way to pass the time on lunch break, great way to get fired the rest of the time. Must remember this cardinal rule!

1st day

2009-02-03T14:31:00.000-08:00

So, I did manage to post my resolutions before the end of January, though just barely if you'll notice the time signature.

Today I went and ran at the gym before work. I forgot how much fun running is, though still not enough fun that I would do it regularly unless I wanted to get healthier. But still, running is fun, people, and there's a chance I might even end up REALLY liking it by the time this is through. For those keeping track with me, I ran 2.5 miles towards my 1000 for the year.

I have eaten a little junk food today, but nothing to get upset over.

So far so good. One day down, 89 to go.

So this year...

2009-01-31T23:27:00.000-08:00

I want to make some sort of headway in my career goals. (defining them might be a good start)

I want to run 1000 miles.

I want to save 5000 dollars.

I want to try one big thing each month that I haven't done/seen/eaten/etc before.

I want to extend myself.

Last Year's Resolutions

2009-01-31T23:08:00.000-08:00

General
Don’t waste my days FAILED, MOSTLY
Relaxing is fine, wasting is not.
Get back to New Orleans FAILED
My favorite place in the world, so why am I not there more often?

Financial
Get promoted HALF-SUCCEEDED
And truly deserve it. No sleeping with the boss(es) to get this one…
Buy a computer FAILED
With editing software. Next, take over the world!
Fix my car up nice DOUBLE FAIL
Cause it needs it. Bad.
Save at least 3,500 dollars TRIPLE QUADRUPLE FAIL
Oh where, oh where have my life savings gone?

Physical
Try new sports (and play MORE racquetball)PARTLY SUCCEED
Gonna join a kickball league in March, dominate the racquetball court, and maybe take up basketball again.
Remember to take my vitamins FAILED
Exercise at least 3 times a week FAILED
I want to be able to run! . . . More than a block.
High fruit and vegetable intake FAILED
Because they’re good… and good for you!
Flat tummy, bigger butt, better wardrobe FAILED
Just a general summation of how I want to improve my looks in ’08.

Intellectual
Record my life more carefully FAILED
Books I read, movies I watch, random hilarious or thought provoking events. I love reading about it later.
Read 30 books (keep a list) SUCCESS UNKNOWN
Français? Oui, s’il vous plait. FAILED
Parce que je voudrais apprendre plus français.
Learn to use a DV camera FAILED
This is, in the immediate future, to help me get promoted. In the distant future? Camerawoman on Ice Road Truckers, or the like.
Explore creativity more (guitar, drawing, writing)FAILED

Interpersonal
Keep in touch with friends, make new FAILED
Call my family more FAILED
My grandmothers are old. Every few weeks, my immediate family wonders whether I’m still alive.

P.S.

2009-01-20T23:06:00.000-08:00

P.S. I don't know who reads my blog. Feel free to comment if you want; it's not a requirement. But here's the thing: I don't want to tiptoe around. Hopefully, friends of mine will read this blog. And hopefully, I won't ever truly damage our friendships with anything I say here. That said, I WON'T censor myself. If something is true and I want to tell it, I will write it here. Even if something is grossly exaggerated and has only the slightest grasp on reality, if I feel it in the moment, I may publish it. It's even possible I will share sensitive personal (though never anything strictly confidential) details about our interactions or conversations.

So, be offended if you must - argue, fight, yell, scream, throw things if you must, but TRY not to take it so personally.

We'll work it all out in the end.

Dusting It Off

2009-01-20T22:10:00.000-08:00

So, we're going to dust off the old blog.

I'd like to start back on a positive note. I'd like to... but things are just sucking wildly right now. Pretty much everything that can be wrong is.

Don't misunderstand; I still have an ounce of perspective left. My family is healthy. I'm fairly healthy. I'm not broke and nothing cataclysmic has happened lately.

However, my job is crushing my soul, I hate my body/face, I'm being repeatedly rejected by the same guy (my fault for going back, I guess), I feel like I'm not my best friend's best friend, I have no personal discipline to speak of, and my roommate and I may be going our separate ways shortly.

Yeah.

So there you have it.

I'll try to get a resolutions post up before the end of the month (got to work on that self-discipline thing).

An Update

2008-05-02T23:25:00.001-07:00

So the diet hasn't quite materialized yet. Personal discipline is at its usual low.

I have been exercising nearly every day. This week, things got a bit off track. But I hope to put things back together tomorrow morning.

I've got a ton more I could talk about, but I'm too bored with life and don't feel like discussing anything right now.

My weight loss (more importantly, fat loss) isn't going as well as last time. But exercising is good for me regardless of cosmetic reasons.

A Little Light in the Tunnel; A Bad Morning

2008-04-21T13:33:00.000-07:00

Today was to mark the first day of my diet. Not surprisingly, the universe conspired to derail it. There was an incident this morning with a cockroach in my jewelry drawer and I ended up running so late that I didn't even think about grabbing my pre-prepared diet food. So, I'll eat healthy today and start the formal diet tomorrow. As far as the cockroach, let's never speak of it again.

In other news, I've been working out for three straight days. For the last few weeks, I haven't set foot in the gym and have been tired and cranky. It's a bad cycle of laziness. So, on Saturday, when I had no other responsibilities, I decided to start my exercise program. It was really not so bad, and on Sunday morning, I woke up at 8:30, before my alarm. So it looks like I'm going to start feeling better and having more energy. So yay for that.

It looks like, so far, on day three, my goals might actually be attainable. I guess I'll specify my goals for you guys a little later on.

An Obstacle

2008-04-15T11:16:00.000-07:00

My roommate was supposed to leave town on Wednesday morning. This was to mark the beginning of my transformation.

I'd planned to lock myself down and really get my shit together. While she's gone, I'm going to live something of the monastic life for those three weeks or so.

I'm going to be at the gym every day, start eating healthy again and just basically bring back the discipline that I've been sorely lacking lately.

However, a few obstacles have appeared here at the beginning of my journey:

1.) Krysta won't be leaving until Thursday morning.

2.) My parents will be in town Wednesday night.

3.) I am going dancing Thursday night till late.

4.) I have no groceries at all.

So, it looks like I may have to wait until Friday night or Saturday to start getting my shit together. But nothing will stop me after that.

An Assessment of Progress

2008-04-08T18:52:00.000-07:00

These were my New Year's Resolutions:

General
Don’t waste my days
Relaxing is fine, wasting is not.
Get back to New Orleans
My favorite place in the world, so why am I not there more often?

Financial
Get promoted
And truly deserve it. No sleeping with the boss(es) to get this one…
Buy a computer
With editing software. Next, take over the world!
Fix my car up nice
Cause it needs it. Bad.
Save at least 3,500 dollars
Oh where, oh where have my life savings gone?

Physical
Try new sports (and play MORE racquetball)
Gonna join a kickball league in March, dominate the racquetball court, and maybe take up basketball again.
Remember to take my vitamins
Exercise at least 3 times a week
I want to be able to run! . . . More than a block.
High fruit and vegetable intake
Because they’re good… and good for you!
Flat tummy, bigger butt, better wardrobe
Just a general summation of how I want to improve my looks in ’08.

Intellectual
Record my life more carefully
Books I read, movies I watch, random hilarious or thought provoking events. I love reading about it later.
Read 30 books (keep a list)
Français? Oui, s’il vous plait.
Parce que je voudrais apprendre plus français.
Learn to use a DV camera
This is, in the immediate future, to help me get promoted. In the distant future? Camerawoman on Ice Road Truckers, or the like.
Explore creativity more (guitar, drawing, writing)

Interpersonal
Keep in touch with friends, make new
Call my family more
My grandmothers are old. Every few weeks, my immediate family wonders whether I’m still alive.

This is how I've done so far:

Generally, I have been about 50/50 on wasting my days and I have not gotten back to New Orleans, yet. There are no plans in the works for me to do so.

Financially, I have not gotten a promoted, bought a computer (did buy a snowboard), fixed my car, or saved 3,500 dollars. I've saved 300. Maybe. And with plans to spend it frivolously ni the near future.

Physically, I missed the deadline for kickball, have not bought raquetball equipment, and found out that I now suck at basketball. I have forgotten to take my vitamins 99% of the time and, though I was very well behaved for about six weeks, recently I have not been eating many fruits or vegetables or working out. My stomach is still flabby, my butt is still tiny. Small success: I have been dressing better.

Intellectually, I have not been blogging diligently, nor keeping track of movies, books, and events. I am working towards my goal of thirty books, but have not been keeping a list (makes it kind of hard to know if I accomplish my goal). I have no expanded my French, learned to use a DV camera or really explored my creativity at all.

Personally, I have not spoken to my Grandmothers in months. I just recently saw my mother and father, though.

In a nutshell: I am SUCKING at keeping my resolutions.

A Definition

2008-04-07T20:05:00.000-07:00

met·a·mor·pho·sis: 1.) a profound change in form from one stage to the next in the life history of an organism. 2.) a marked change in appearance, character, condition, or function.